おはようございます。KANOです。今回はこちらの記事から。
アル中の親を持ったけれど、その悪影響から逃れて自分をコントロールできている方の体験談。
私もアル中父親のこと大嫌いだったから、その強い嫌悪感を忘れずに、大学入学時に飲酒断固拒否しておけばよかったなあと思う。
40代でやっと断酒できたけど、結局20-30代の貴重な時間と貯金と人間関係を無駄にしたからなー。
tentatively
意味 自信なさそうに, ためらいがちに
Sat in a local bar, holding a gin and tonic tentatively in one hand, I watch party-goers mill around during my friend’s birthday celebration.
https://metro.co.uk/2022/07/09/having-an-alcoholic-parent-ruined-my-relationship-with-booze-16793731/
compose
意味 [～ oneself]心を落ち着かせる （受け身にしない）
I think of it as my ‘here we go’ moment where I know that I have to really compose myself internally and make sure I’m careful with what I’m drinking and how much I’m drinking. I feel like I have to put a lot more thought into how I conduct myself than others in the same situation.
https://metro.co.uk/2022/07/09/having-an-alcoholic-parent-ruined-my-relationship-with-booze-16793731/
この自制の意識を若い頃に持ててたらなぁ…まあ私はアル中男と糖尿女の遺伝子持ち（＝自分に激甘）だから難しいんだけどね。
cross
意味 (主に英· やや古)[通例 be ～]〈人が〉＜人に＞ 怒って, 不機嫌で (annoyed) ＜with＞ （しばしば子供に対して用いる）
My mother was never really able to be cross with me – she struggled a lot with discipline and was a very passive parent so her reaction was simple exasperation. She just went and replaced the alcohol after a few stern words.
https://metro.co.uk/2022/07/09/having-an-alcoholic-parent-ruined-my-relationship-with-booze-16793731/
underage
意味 [通例[名]の前で]未成年 (者) の [による]; （法的に） 基準年齢に達していない
As a teenager I joined a group of friends who regularly drank underage. I partook as I was desperate to be liked — but it was extreme drinking.
https://metro.co.uk/2022/07/09/having-an-alcoholic-parent-ruined-my-relationship-with-booze-16793731/
大学時代はお酒とコミュニティがセットになってたからなぁ…いまなら、酒飲まなくても居心地いい場所なんて探せば（しかも都内に住んでたんだから）いくらでもあったろうにと思えるけど。
succumb
意味 屈する, 負ける (give in)
However, I would occasionally succumb, and after I would hide in my post-alcohol anxiety – because those couple of nights a month would always include excessive drinking – and this became a constant until I was 21.
https://metro.co.uk/2022/07/09/having-an-alcoholic-parent-ruined-my-relationship-with-booze-16793731/
発音は「 /səkʌ́m/ 」b発音しないやつねー。
hereditary
意味 遺伝的な, 遺伝 (性) の
Many times, I’ve tried to cut out alcohol completely, for the fear of addiction being a hereditary trait. But I have a strong desire to prove that it’s possible to come out of this with the ability to drink within reason, if only to prove it to myself and to those who compared me to my mother when I was only a child. I cut contact with them all, but the thought still satisfies me.
https://metro.co.uk/2022/07/09/having-an-alcoholic-parent-ruined-my-relationship-with-booze-16793731/
嫌な習慣を引き継ぎたくないよなぁ。
strained
意味 〈状況などが〉緊張した, 張りつめた.
I have accepted that I will always have a strained relationship with alcohol, but I hope that one day I can drink a simple glass of wine without wondering whether I’m following in my mother’s footsteps.
https://metro.co.uk/2022/07/09/having-an-alcoholic-parent-ruined-my-relationship-with-booze-16793731/
適量でどうしても止められない自覚があるから、私はすっぱり一滴も飲まないって決めました。味覚がアホだから、ノンアルコール飲料で落ち着くしねw
messy
意味 〈場所などが〉散らかった, 汚い、〈状況などが〉複雑で扱いにくい; 不快な, やっかいな
Looking back at the birthday party, where I sat with gin and tonic in hand, I left two hours in after one drink as it was starting to get messy and by that I mean, drunken arguments were happening with partygoers.
https://metro.co.uk/2022/07/09/having-an-alcoholic-parent-ruined-my-relationship-with-booze-16793731/
